I should be extremely thrilled for the fact that it's 13 more days till I'll be coming home but right now, I don't feel a single thing.
Somehow the feeling of being excited is just tiring for me. Doing countdowns for the last 60 days got me thinking, what actually have I been doing for the past few months besides eating and sleeping? Studying? Maybe. Kot. I think so. Hahahahahaha.
Dalam hati terasa berdebar-debar nak balik. Am I still the same person I was 8 months ago? Eeeee takutnya :S Hahaha boleh tak macam tu? There's still so much that I don't know, there's still so much that I have to learn.
Nonetheless, my friends keep on reminding me about going back. Thank you for that. Terasa terharu, sebab even though jauh, they still remember me. Hehe :')
Anyways nak share a piece of, umm, what shall I call this. Advice? I think. Got it from a senior here, from what I understand la eh.
Ehem ehem. There are four things that we need to remember when we do something/anything. First is tajdid niat, in other words, renew our niat. Always always always remember to set our niat we do something because of Allah.
Yes sometimes its hard, diri sendiri pun masih ada kekurangan. Sometimes, we do something because we want to impress others, or for ourselves but what do we really gain from just doing it for others/ourselves. Sekurang-kurangnya, when we renew our niat, insyaAllah pahala pun dapat.
Second is, istiqomah, melakukan sesuatu secara berterusan yakni, doing something continuously. The easiest example would be studying, one day we feel like studying the whole day (in this case, when exams are getting near of course) the next day we feel like we still have tomorrow and the day after that to study. Kalau tak istiqomah, macam mana diri nak excellent.
Third point is sabar. Patience. Sometimes things just don't work out like how we want it to be. Of course we feel sad and frustrated about it. "I did my best" "I tried very hard" "I can't believe it, out of all people why me" Diri sendiri selalu ulang tiga frasa tadi, jahil sungguh. Sabar lah Ama. You might think that's the best for you, but Allah knows better. He just do, trust and be patient. Mungkin kita kurang sikit at certain parts, but Allah akan bagi something else or in other words, Allah "top up" kan yang lain.
Last but not least, and I think the most important point, pergantungan mutlak kepada Allah. Selepas usaha, kita tawakkal. Failing doesn't mean we have to give up and getting what we want doesn't mean it ends there.
Wah, sentap. All the points memang terkena sangat sangat dekat diri sendiri. That was the reason why I wanted to share what that senior told me, because it felt as if she was advising me and not the rest of the crowd. I lack of these four points and I hope by sharing it we could all improve ourselves, insyaAllah.
Okay back to point number two, I should be studying now. Hehe. Assalamualaikum :)
